Tag: Desk Diary

I’d like to be blunt: I do not like the client we’re working these days. They’re nitpicky and they change from time to time, to the point that It’s almost pointless to send drafts.

My work is seeping in my life as I practice the work from home routine, and jut last Tuesday I had a bad case of being so furious that it took me an hour to calm down. I do not like revisions a lot, and I don’t know any outlet to speak of this. This current project we’re handling makes me want to break plates, glasses, or if possible, burn bridges.

Sure, not every day is like this, but hear me out, I’ve never had a day where I need to calm down for one hour as I reel from the frustration that this current work is heave as hell. I even had to seek help from friends; I have to, or else I will explode either in front of my boss or worse, the client itself. I never signed up for this, but I need to muster my courage, because we live in sad times where I should be grateful that I still have work – because most of us unfortunately don’t.

I need to let this out. Breathe in. Breathe out. It’s not normal to rant about a client. It’s abnormal to rant about a client as crazy as this one. Don’t do this, ever. You should not probably be able to see this desk diary popping up in search. I take exception to this.

If there’s something amazing that’s happened, it’s before I woke up to see another day of this misery. I was in Indonesia for a vacation, and I’ve met my online friends in-person. Much have been said about my fascination with the country, which I treat as something of a parallel world.

It goes something like this: One night, I got to meet my friends, we ate dinner, and had a group photo afterwards. I presume that we just finished an event back then, and I’ll assume that I carry with me a lot of stories.

This is my best dream ever in the past one year of this pandemic. We are all dreaming that we can do the same thing we grow up doing: Work, then hobby, field work, then attend a local anime/cosplay convention.

Should the pandemic be over and we got a cure for this flu-like disease, I’m very much willing to claim it. this pandemic has changed so many lives, and we all wish we could turn back time. The enemy wins, and we are all perishing.

At the end of the dream, I had to book a ticket going out of Indonesia, but I said to myself, “If I don’t book a flight as soon as possible, I can’t get back to work.” I do not want to get back to work just yet. There’s that one word for this feeling: Bitin. Not enough. I wish I could cherish more of these moments.

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The title says it all. Just how long has it been since I wrote something like this?

I am happy and blessed to still share content here despite the commitments that I have. In the next few weeks, I’ll be embarking on another hell of a trip, as work tasks gradually pile up.

I always think of the phrase “Dense, shaking, and overflowing” each time we secure a project. While I can whine all the time during the project period (just like every creative and technical in the field, don’t lie), in the end, once the project is done, I’m good.

Then I ask to relax for a week or two, depending on how my mind and body coordinates with each other.

In most quarterly transitions, I always have this feeling that “I don’t want to work,” and I don’t want to do anything, just like the Bruno Mars song. In the end, I keep myself motivated. Just look at now, I’m writing this during a time when I’m active – at around past midnight.

Above all else, I think this is normal. Should it be? No, not at all… but to think of job security at this crucial moment, I am as blessed as the ones who have their jobs still secured, and are still working in these troubled times.

As for the troubles, it’s all in my head (and my body). I just don’t realize I’ve got past over it. Don’t get me started with work-life balance though, that’ll be a long story.

Shopee got me with their 4.4 Sale. They led me to buy a desktop mic, which is perfect for podcast recordings and some streaming. I already tried this Maono desktop mic that I got for around half the price on that day alone.

It was a solid deal that it really sold out. I was about to link the item to you guys, but they do have mics around Php3,000 up on the Maono Shopee store.

That said, this secures my foothold further into podcasting. I’m still thinking of a suitable workflow, but we will get there eventually. Hopefully, this mic does wonders.

Again, if you don’t see me here that quite often, I’m busy with helping Anime Corner at the sidelines. I almost forgot that this month is when Deremoe was established.

While I already closed the book with the Deremoe Archive vlog series, I still say that I won’t be in my current state if not for my activity in the said group blog.

I’ll cap off this Desk Diary for now, and I hope I can write more in the next few days.

It’s been a while since I wrote my last Desk Diary. I found some time to write another one while feeling kind of weak from all the meetings and tech runs I had to take.

It’s also been a while since I collaborated hand in hand with Anime Corner, and now I’m helping them push more stories out. It’s safe to say that I’ve become much busier. On one hand, I have spent more time on the screen, but on the other hand, it helps me get distracted from feeling down.

There’s always this fear of spreading myself too thin. Here’s my routine: I work on weekdays and sometimes it gets extended. At night, I either check my Discord or talk to my friends on Facebook. Most of the time, I end up browsing too much. At weekends, I prepare for Sunday’s ANImazing Show!.

If there’s one thing I learned from each of these, I’d say that I should love my work even if it’s getting harder. In some weeks, there’s less event work, which means more time for my personal matters; at most weeks though, the blessings are dense, shaking and overflowing that I had to take some time off.

There are days that I’m so bummed out that I rest from 6pm onwards, only to wake up at around 9pm or 10pm to continue what’s left of my pending tasks. Those moments mostly happen after a long Zoom meeting.

Most of the time, I believe I have Zoom fatigue. Well, the scientists have found out that it really exists.

This pandemic has worsened conditions: I’m only going into a few places (no physical events until now), and my body clock has adjusted well to a 10am to 2am cycle.

If there’s something I’m thankful, it’s the fact that I still have a job despite all of the shenanigans, and I am still able to sleep 8 hours the most.

It’s been 5 years since I joined the events industry. At first, I was not sure if I can survive being on the other side of the coin. The last time I had been involved with an event is when I’m active as part of the local otaku media.

I’ve already closed a chapter in my life, and move on to the next… and then some.

Over the last five years, I’ve seen how things changed – like that one corner near our office. It was once a warehouse. It was demolished, and turned into two condo towers.

Some of you have seen my adventures in the events industry in the past five years – from going on the field up to working at home. Truth be told, I am glad I made my decision to move on and move forward. I could have worked in the media industry, but I chose to pursue a career in events.

By making that decision, I understand the feelings of some of my friends who are in the same industry. Nowadays, I get happy if one of my new friends or acquaintances found his/her way into the industry.

I was supposed to file this diary entry yesterday, but I was not ready when I learned that Kiryu Coco cried on stream so bad. I’m definitely not ok with anyone crying on stream for all the wrong reasons.

Our battle scars with Hololive were supposed to heal, but this one is a malignant tumor.

I could be much more speculative about this, but as far as I learn, it’s all about these big mistakes. Imagine writing the noisy in the blackboard, passing it to the teacher, and then you realized that the noisy ones were given merits. That would make me flip my switch. That’s how I see Coco’s situation right now.

Despite the things that have happened, people with a lot of time and a penchant for too much defensive attacks continue to hound Coco. This, even if Hololive has left China. While there are better people in China, it’s just that the ones we see who does not mind their manners and let loose all the time that’s damaging the reputation of the better ones.

Now, Coco is taking it to herself to undo the situation. I believe this is for the best – Coco knows best about her channel, obviously.

Even with all of these things in mind, she reminds people to love every one another. We are lured to hate. We take the bait, then we make fools of ourselves. Then we realized that this is not the way. We are smart enough to know that there’re better people that we should look upon.

In this case, knowing that this hate is becoming beyond our control, we’re doing our part to kick against the hate, supporting Kiryu Coco and proving that she’s a hardworking dragon, and Coco knows. She knows – and she is sharing all the love in the world.

I joined the Facebook bandwagon and asked my friends if they appreciate my existence there. Forty of them said yes.

I rarely share stuff on my personal Facebook – heck, I just look at my news feed, messenger, reply to some, get back to the news feed, etc. Then share memes on the page.

Thank you for appreciating my existence even if I rarely talk, that means a lot.